okay so i feel it's about time i address this
i've tried to write this journal many many times for a very long time now but could just never get through it
So I don't know if you guys have noticed, but i've been very absent from here for a very long time
sometimes i'd pop in every 2 months or so to post something
and this has been a steady downward spiral for over a year (or i guess almost 2) now.
Other than apologizes for leaving here and there I've never addressed this
and well, i feel like it's about time
I've been avoiding dealing with this as i often don't share what i really feel at my core since i know everyone has their own burden